excuse the corny title, im def at work and in need to update cuz i promised i would try to get back on this (kinda sad i JUST got on this and i had to get back on but i digress...). anyway, whats been up with me? nothing much actually, all i have been doing is chillin mostly and trying to stay out of trouble. working a lot seems to help, but there are the down times when i have nothing to do make my idle mind wander...and an idle wandering mind thinks about nothing but things its not supposed to think about....trust me.
other than trying to keep my hands to myself, i am also reminding myself that my mother is always right....because she is...there has never (ALL OF MY FREAKING LIFE) been an instance where my moms has said anything and been wrong about it.its like God tells her, "Aye...say this to that big headed child of yours, he wont listen, but at least now he will know what he needs to do". I kid you not, that conversation has happened over a million times and I do not appreciate her not filling me in either. She pretty much told me who I am supposed to be with the other day...and it shocked the heck out of me cuz she is....drumroll.....bright skinned. If you know me, i have probably told you that my mother has not had a high opinion of any bright skinned women i have dated all my life (i have had at leas 20 gfs by the way...more than hald have been bright) so when she told me this i had to put the phone down for a second and catch my breathe. I confronted her about the whole anti-light-bright thing and she said she honestly never noticed their skin tone, she "just didnt like them heifers for my son" (<-- direct quote...sorry ex gfs :p) so there was no malice toward the fairer skinned black people, her and God just had a conference and they decided this girl i chose was not good enough for me and where I am headed in life so it was time to move on asap. after i caught my breathe, i asked her who she felt this way about the young lady in question. she refused to tell me, she jsut say that me and this yong lady need to be friends at the very least and should stop this whole not speaking thing we have going on right now. in my present state of mind, im thinking friendship is the way to go...i dont want or need any extra drama in my life right now...
on a different note, i had to make a real grown decision the other day...and it hurt to make it, but i had to do it. i owuld go into details, but to keep people from getting butt hurt, i wont. just know, that i am grown, and i cant get down with being around kids and since you had a childlike mindset, i had to make moves kid, no matter how u feel, thats the truth. i pray for your success in life i can not be around that kind of crap. love ya from a distance kid
now that that is out the way, i think thats it for the week, ill be back for more later on if not this week then next till then...oh and the tat is my most recent, apparently people have not seen it lol, sorry about that folks :p
~be easy
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